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Thursday, January 10th, 2008
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2:26 pm - I'm ALIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEE!
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Yes people. I'm alive. I realize I haven't updated this thing in well over a year, but I've been distracted.
Things are well. Pandy is doing great (she just turned 7!!!). I still work at my suckass job. And, um, I'm still in Norman.
Yup. Thats' all I have to say after a year. Actually, i do have more to say, but no time to say it. So you'll just have to settle with what I've written. Tough Titties!
Ok. bye.
current mood:  crushed
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| Saturday, October 7th, 2006
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12:29 am - There's no way it can get any worse.....
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.... And then the clouds opened up, and God said, "I hate you Kimberlee."
story of my freaking life.
too bad I'm too optimistic to give up. Even when there's nothing, at least there's hope, right?
Or is that just a way to deny the immediate pain and suffering in order to psych myself into believing that it'll get better soon... even if it won't?
damn late night thoughts. Damn LA Kings losing the game. Damn hope. And damn imagination that keeps the firm reality from completely sinking in, pushing me to continue to hold on and hold out for something better which might not ever come.
damn the inability to feel good without chemicals. And damn the morality that keeps those chemicals from entering my body.
damn it all.... I'm moving to Timbuktu.
current mood: degected
current music: Chevelle- One Lonely Visitor
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| Friday, July 14th, 2006
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3:00 pm - Not dead, but definitely dyin'.... with the rest of the clowns, yeah yeah.....
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Time for a real, brief update before I go to work.
I lost my job at the restraunt. Why? Because I went in there in a bad mood for one day. ONE FUCKING DAY. I didn't close down the bar until late the night before....got to work the next morning to open. I wasn't happy. Plus, I had been up arguing with the guy I've sort of been seeing/fucking/dating/whatthefuckever it is we're doing and that didn't help matters any.
I still have no clue what's going on with us. As far as I know, I'm "his girl". Now, what "his girl" means, I have no clue. Apparently it means that I can't mess around with anyone else, or fall for anyone...I dunno. I honestly don't care. It'd just be nice to know what I CAN do so I can do it. But that's niether here nor there.
The point is, I have no car still. I'm only working at the bar now, so I have to go find another day job. I still have no place to call my own, and at this rate I never will. I hate my life sometimes.
Other than that, things have been mundane. And when I say mundane, it means that I haven't done anything that I would normally do- like raise all kinds of anonymous hell. No. Instead I've been trying to keep my mind from bursting into all different directions. I'm losing it.... I either can't sleep at all or I sleep too much. I can't organize my thoughts well enough to even beging to know what I'm attempting to think.... I can't even explain it.
But I'll survive.... things aren't bad. They're not great by any means, but they could be so much worse- so I'm grateful for the few and far between things that are actually going right in my life.....
I've been single for over a year. What the fuck is wrong with me?
it's all about the steady dip.
current mood:  cynical
current music: Jack Johnson & G.Love & Special Sauce- Rodeo Clowns
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| Sunday, July 9th, 2006
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6:10 am - 13
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Bad-luck wind been blowing on my back
I was born to bring trouble wherever i'm at
With a number 13 tatooed on my neck
That ink starts to itch
Black gon' turn to red
I was born in the soul of misery and I
Never had me a name
They just gave me a number
When I was young
Got a long line of heartache
I carry it well
List of lives I've broken
Reach from here to hell
And a bad-luck wind been blowin' on my back
Pray you don't look, and pray I don't look back
I was born in the soul of misery and I
Never had me a name
They just gave me a number
When I was young
Found me with a preacher man confessin' all I done
Catch me with the devil playing 21
And a bad-luck wind been blowin' on my back
I was born to
Bring trouble wherever i'm at
I was born in the soul of misery and I
Never had me a name
They just gave me a number
When i was young
current mood: crushed
current music: Johnny Cash- Thirteen (Danzig cover)
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| Tuesday, July 4th, 2006
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9:46 pm - Closer I am to fine.....
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Happy 4th everyone.
This is the first 4th I've been without my daughter since she was born. It's not easy, and I'm bored out of my mind.... but it's good that she's spending time with her dad and co-mom. I miss her.
Tonight was uneventful. I worked. That's about it. I have 2 jobs now, by the way. Trying to get an apartment and my car fixed. Wish me luck that either one will happen soon.
Other than that, I'm still fairly single, still kickin.
Can't say that things are perfect, or even great... but they're going, and that's all that matters, right?
current mood: cranky
current music: fireworks outside
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| Thursday, June 15th, 2006
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11:55 am - Find yourself a girl and settle down.....
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Been watching the Stanley Cup. Badass. Go Oilers!!!
Tattoo is healing. Still looks bad ass. I need to get flames around it. I have a pic, but it's just a matter of posting it when I have more time. Sorry, I'll try sometime in the next few days.
Work is going great.
Dating life is.... eh. The same I guess.
And umm.... other than that, I don't guess I have anything really exciting to share.
Isn't life grand?
current mood:  blah
current music: White Stripes- Walking With A Ghost (Teagan & Sara cover)
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| Thursday, June 8th, 2006
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6:31 pm - Not very many firsts left in my life.....
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I got my first tattoo.
It's the symbol for Sagittarius. It's on the back of my neck. It's badass.
cuz that's how I roll.
current mood:  crazy
current music: Sublime- Doin' Time
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| Thursday, May 18th, 2006
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3:26 pm - I've had some bad luck with the ladies before, but I think that my luck is improving....
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Went and saw the Burtschi Brothers on Monday night. It was badass. Got Travis Linville's new cd Hometown Blues. It's badass as well.
Things have been going well. Work is awesome. It's busy as hell, but awesome. Been making a bangload of money. Unfortunately, as soon as I make it, it's gone. :( I need to get a new transmission. Damn bad luck with cars.
2 weeks 'till G-Love & Special Sauce!!!!!
Might go see Rob Zombie and Anthrax in July. Just gotta talk to my sugar mama to see if she'll hook me up with a ticket.
And.... other than that, I've just been keeping busy. Pandy is doing great. She's doing really well now that she's spending so much time with her dad and co-mom. She's really come out of her shell since they've been in her life. I think that she finally feels complete, and I couldn't be happier.
sooo.... that's it. I might be going to Arkansas this weekend. I'd like to see Cheri. I miss that hooker :(
Ok. That's it. I need to go shower now.
current mood:  content
current music: Mike Hosty Trio- Maybe
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| Monday, May 15th, 2006
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6:15 pm - Take it like that........
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Stuff is better. Going to see Travis Linville tonight with a friend of mine. Work is going great. And umm... my best friend has been stolen by a man.
But...on Saturday, Desi and I got in the hottub, got really drunk, and danced around (inside the hottub, mind you) singing "Girls" By Beastie Boys at the top of our lungs. My mom and dad think I'm insane.
Had a great mother's day. Watched a great Family Guy. Had a good weekend.
Oh yeah, and America (The Book) is one of the best books EVAR!
(p.s. Happy Birthday, you).
current mood: complacent
current music: Jeff Buckley- Farewell Angelena (Bob Dylan cover)
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| Thursday, May 11th, 2006
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6:50 pm - A Quickie
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Welp. I'm no longer seeing that guy, I suppose. Whatever. I won't cry about it. I got my job back. YAY!
Car is still dead.
That's what's new.
current mood: cranky
current music: Deftones- Shut Up and Drive (Far Away) (acoustic)
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| Thursday, May 4th, 2006
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2:01 pm - That's how we roll.......
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I have to get this out of the way first....
HAHAHahahahHAHAHAHAhahahahAHAHahAHAHaHhahahahah
ok.... that's better.
Car is still broken. Might get a job at the hospital. The guy I've been dating is my bitch. Angie is now known as "The Reciever" (I'm "The Giver"). Desi is now simply known as "#2". Things are weird, but fun and pretty ok. Might be going to Tulsa next weekend to hang out with a cool cat and watch a band play. I'm in love with Mike Hosty and Travis Linville- even more so now that I have some of their albums. Angie and I psycho-stalked a friend of hers. It was fun and he liked it. And ummm.... Jack Johnson is teh bom.
thankyouandgoodnight.
*The Giver*
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| Monday, May 1st, 2006
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1:25 pm
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This needs to be said. Now.
Don't fuck with me.
I've got the smalltown mafia on my side....I have several different friends in several different states.
Don't.Fuck.With.Me.
My dad has a gun. My mom has a gun. They're about to pass an extension of the "Make My Day" law- which will allow me to kill you in self defense if need be- anywhere. In the street, in a store, next to my car. I haven't let my guard down since that night, and I am in constant surveilance of my surroundings. I won't let you catch me by surprise anymore.
One last time.
DON'T.FUCK.WITH.ME.AGAIN.
current mood: annoyed
current music: White Stripes- Walking With A Ghost (Teagan & Sara cover)
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| Friday, January 20th, 2006
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8:27 pm - I really identify with you so much.
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"Liar" By Henry Rollins Band is one of the best songs ever made.
period.
current mood: angry
current music: Henry Rollins Band- Liar
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| Tuesday, January 17th, 2006
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6:44 am
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well, my car is officially fucked. The transmission just went out.
this is wonderful, because Lord knows I can afford another car right now...*sigh*
current mood: pissed off
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| Sunday, January 15th, 2006
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6:17 pm - Arise, chicken....arise
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I AM
SOFA KING
WE TODD ID
*headdesk*
current mood:  confused
current music: A.T.H.F. on tv, bitches
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| Thursday, December 29th, 2005
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4:03 pm - on a sadder note......
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For the last few months, I've been following the story of Kelsey Smith-Briggs- a little girl who needlessly died due to child abuse. Every time the news would cover her story, I would cry. The more details that came to light after her death, the more the tears would flow, and the anger and disbelief would rise within me. I felt a strange connection to this little girl whom I have never met- and now I know why.
Not only was she blonde haired and blue eyed like my little girl, but she also shared the same birthday.
So... happy belated birthday, Kelsey.
They still have yet to charge the mother with any type of crime. There are too many cases of children dying due to abuse and neglect in Oklahoma. DHS is not doing it's job to protect the children who need it the most. I'm disappointed at their actions, or lack thereof. And for them to try to cover their tracks by sealing every document made over months and months of reported abuse is unbelievable. I just don't understand how her mother would stand by and do nothing when she knew that her husband was abusing her own flesh and blood. She should be charged, but probably won't be. And that breaks my heart.
If anyone- I don't give a damn who- EVER laid a finger on my child, I would rip them to shreds without a second thought. I would NOT just stand idly by and do nothing to stop the abuse. I would report them and have them thrown in jail, and would distance myself from them indefinitely.
It's just... outrageous. The more I read about this case, the more speechless I become, and the more I wish that I could change the system on my own.
in other news...
Pandy's birthday party went well. She had fun, blew out her candles after much argument with my family about whether or not to sing to her because it freaks her out (they did anyway), and got to camp out in her grandma's living room.
I should be finished moving by Saturday. My place is small, but it's home... and it's ours :)
Hope everyone had a great holiday- and (in case I don't update before then) please have a very happy, VERY SAFE New Year. Please don't drink and drive.
current mood: sad
current music: Tool- Sober
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| Wednesday, December 28th, 2005
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10:05 am - HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PANDY!!
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Today is Pandy's 5th birthday. As of this very moment, she is officially 5 years old.
Lots of stuff planned for today. Have to go to town and get some dinner stuff, some party hats, and pick up Angie, Taylor and Phoebe.
Man... 5 years old already. I will not cry. I will not cry. I will not cry.
current mood:  nostalgic
current music: news on tv
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| Monday, December 26th, 2005
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8:29 pm - obligatory post-christmas update.......
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So, Christmas wasn't too bad.
I finished up my Christmas shopping, went home and hid the stuff. Later that night, I "accidently" fell asleep. Shannon woke me up and told me to get up and start putting stuff out. We do that. Pandy got a lot of stuff. The stuff I wrote about before, and then some. It was nice. I got the new Family Guy dvd set, the new Aqua Teen Hunger Force dvd set, and A Clockwork Orange Stewie shirt (awesome). I also got some more stuff that was cool.
Oh, and Piper is walking now.
Anyway, so we ate smoked ham out at mom's. I got there a few hours early so I could clean out my place. I got that all done. Chowed. Opened presents. Chatted with family. It was pretty cool, too.
Came home. Watched Family Guy. Opened some of Pandy's toys so she could play. Etc. Etc. Etc.
Ohhh yeah, and Jeremy got her a Dora book that has a little projector on it. It's pretty neat.
Anyway, I went in to work this morning only to learn that it was closed because the cook's house flooded. So Desirae, my boss Dean and I sat at the "mafia table", drank coffee and talked for about an hour and a half. It was cool. It's so laid back there 90% of the time. I like my job.
Anyway, so instead of working, I went shopping for Pandy's birthday presents. I got her a spongebob tv and a dora dvd player. Seriously. I'm trying to find her a leapfrog system, but I can't make up my mind on which one to get her.
Wedsday is her birthday. I guess I'm going to make her a cake out at mom's house. Invite Angie and Taylor and Phoebe over, throw a mini party.
There's more stuff, but I'm sick of typing.
so goodnight.
current mood: drained
current music: PJ Harvey- Sheela-Ni-Gig
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| Sunday, December 25th, 2005
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10:28 am - Happy/Merry < insert favorite holiday here >, everyone!!!
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hope everyone is safe and happy.
current mood: jolly
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| Thursday, December 22nd, 2005
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4:54 pm - someone PLEASE get that damn "My Humps" song out of my head before I spork it out!!!
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I just went and looked at my new place. It's small, but it'll be just fine for Pandy and I until I get the apartment in a few months. I'm really excited. Even though I'll be on my mom's property- I'll have my own space.
Once Tony gets here with the last bits of Pandy's presents, I'll finally be done Christmas shopping for her. Tomorrow night I have to go get a few things for the other kin, but I'll be d-o-n-e DONE. I never thought I'd say this, but I am sick of shopping. I'm disappointed, though, because I couldn't find the Narnia collection :( My sister got it the other night for her daughter (the one book with all the volumes in it), but they were sold out when I went. I'll check back after Christmas and see if they have one.
I got Pandy the cutest freaking Christmas dress, too. It was on sale, so I couldn't resist. It's a santa type dress with a hat and booties. Only...the booties don't fit her because she has ginormous feet. Hopefully she still fits into the Uggs my aunt got her last Winter. I doubt it, but I'm still crossing my fingers.
I'm worn out. Work has been crazy the last few days. I have 2 more days to go and then I finally have a day off.
And umm... I doubt if I'll be updating again before Christmas. So... I'll just say it now...
MERRY CHRISTMAS! (does that mean I'm going to hell now?), Happy Holidays! And whatever other PC term you want to place there. WHO CARES?! Just have a good (and safe) one :D
current mood: sniffly
current music: Cake- Going The Distance
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| Tuesday, December 20th, 2005
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10:29 am - If I told you to talk to a tree, you would hug it and call it one of your own....
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I got most of my Christmas shopping done now. To add to the list on the last entry, she now has:
A Lite Brite
A mini Bratz doll complete with convertable car
a few more stuffed animals (a lion and a tiger)
some stocking stuffers (stickers, a Cinderella pen, a bobble head Boston Terrier, and some more stuff I forgot)
and a doll.
Tomorrow after work I'm probably going to go by some consignment stores to get her some winter clothes, and then I just have to find a Dancing Dora (which are sold out pretty much everywhere) and I'll be completely done. THEN I can start working on getting her some birthday presents. Top of her list is a kitty Chia pet- which is easy to find and get. But she also wants a Dora the Explorer sleeping bag and a princess chair. Of course, she's 5- so she wants everything she sees on tv. She really, really, REALLY wants Mario Dance Dance Revolution- but that's pretty much out of the question. She can get a game system when she's 6... if her grades are good.
A friend of mine might be visiting for New Years. I'm hella excited about that. THEN, another person that I sort of know but has potential to become a great friend is moving around this area this Wednesday, I believe. Double excitement. So I may have grand plans for New Years. Take THAT boring ass life!
Let's see what else I haven't mentioned... Oh yeah- that girl at work that I didn't really like so much? Yeah, I took her job. So now I'm working full time at the restraunt- which is great. It would be even greater if the cook didn't hit on me. He's nice and all, but I'm just not interested. I'm sort of enjoying being by myself for once. Oh, and I'm moving in the next 2 weeks. I probably won't have much access to the internet, but I'll be checking in when I can. I honestly don't spend much time online anymore, anyway. I basically check my email, check the FG blog, check my friends page, leave harassing messages to Scotty on myspace, and I'm done. Oh, and I check in on true crime blogs like Stephen Huff's. Yeah... the internet is boring lately.
Sooo yeah. I have to work Christmas Eve, which I'm not happy about- but at least it'll give me some spare cash for the after Christmas sales. I have to go sometime this week and reserve and pay for Pandy's birthday cake. I think we might go over to mom's and have a small birthday party. God, I can't believe she's already 5. *cries*
I went and saw Chronicles of Narnia the other day. AWESOME fucking movie! It made me REALLY want to go get the series. I think I'll go look at Hastings and see how much a couple of the books will cost me.
And, umm... that's it. Time to go shower and then attempt to drive in this crap so I can get my tire fixed.
there are weird designs snowed onto my sister's car. I think God is trying to tell me to invade Alaska.
ETA: I got a few more things for Christmas for Pandy. Some stocking stuffers, mostly. I accidently got her a few of the little baby Fairytopia barbies. Yes. They jumped into my cart on their own, ok? I also got her a brand new ornament for our tree. A kitty cat one- she loves it. Then I got her some Candy Canes since she's been asking for them since freaking June. So now I just need to get some new clothes and some candy and I'll be finished! YAY!
current mood: bored
current music: Spongebob on tv
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| Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
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4:04 pm - tra-la-la-la-la la la la la
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I've finally been able to begin Christmas shopping for Pandy. I didn't get much, yet, but I'm hoping that by the time Christmas gets here, she'll have as much as she did last year.
So far I got her:
A Repunzel Barbie
An M&M candy machine
a stuffed cat and dog
3 dollhouses that you can color yourself
A kitty cat calender
and a new stocking that's really, really pretty.
Not too bad for $30 bucks.
After a few trips to the store, I'll have it all done. I'm going to wait to get her birthday present until the after Christmas sales.
Did I mention I have a new job? Yeah, well I do. Waitressing. It's a small place, but it's usually pretty busy. I made $50 on monday and $60 yesterday- which isn't bad considering it was really, really slow. And my boss is awesome. He cracks me up.
Anyway... I'm finally able to start looking forward to Christmas. Joy to the world or some such crap.
current mood:  productive
current music: Stone Temple Pilots- Interstate Love Song
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| Wednesday, December 7th, 2005
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12:37 pm - I ain't seen the sunshine since I don't know when....
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On Saturday, I'm hoping to go watch The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe with my brother and sister. I wanted to take Pandy, but since she's terrified of movie theatres, it's not going to happen. I wish she would go, though. I know she'd love it.
Speaking of Pandy...
I'm highly frustrated at the State of Oklahoma at the moment. I went and did paternity testing on her a few weeks ago, just to have the results come back negative. Now, as it turns out, they had a guy with the right name- only... it wasn't the right guy. I went on Monday to look at a picture of the guy they DID test, and said "uh... no- that's not him. You got the wrong one." I gave them what information I had, and hopefully now they're on the right track. It's aggravating because it made me feel like my family was looking at me like I was a liar. This whole time I've been telling them that I never slept with anyone else while I was with him- which is indeed true. So imagine my surprise when the results came back negative. There were 2 explinations. 1)They got the wrong guy. 2)I really DID immaculately concieve. There was more of a chance of explination 1 being the case, so I basically called them, explained to them as calmly as I could what they did, and crossed my fingers that they wouldn't argue with me. Then, while I was in the hospital, a woman from Child Support Enforcement called and left a message. I called her back when I got out, and she said "I understand you think we messed up" in so many words. I said "No, I don't think you messed up, I know you messed up." After looking at a picture of the guy (who looks nothing like my daughter, and- I have to admit- was not as much of a looker as my ex was), I got it straightened out. Now... I just have to wait, I guess. Not much else I can do.
I hate having to go this route, considering that I have quite a bit of pride and felt I have done just fine without his support for the last 5 years. But there comes a time when you have to chose between pride and what's best (and what's right) for your child. At least this way, I can make a start on a college fund for her, and will be able to do what I can to support her without having to struggle. And honestly- it's only right. I can understand that he wants nothing to do with her. Ok- to be honest, I really can't understand that. I mean, she's amazing. I know he has his own life, and I in no way would ever want to take away from that life- but at the same time... he fathered a child. He KNOWS he fathered a child. And, as far as I know (and from what I've heard), he's lied about it for 5 years. Am I vindictful? Not at all. I honestly could care less about his life other than the fact that I hope he's living it to the full extent. Am I justified? Of course I am. Does my daughter deserve financial support from him? Most definitely. I'm in no way a money grubbing, gold digging hooker of a person. I'm not materialistic, I'm not the type to spend what I can on myself and not my child. Every dime that I would get from him would go towards my daughter in one way or another- whether that be paying a bill to keep her warm at night, buying clothes for her so she can go to school without pants that look like capri's, or contributing to a gift for her on her birthday or for Christmas. It will ALL go for her. And, honestly, she does deserve it- and HE deserves to be partly responsible for her. He may have not asked to have a child out of wedlock- but neither did I. But I wouldn't change the fact that I have her for anything in the world. Not all the money, not all the tea in China, not anything. And although I didn't ask for her, I got her- and I'm grateful for her. And I took responsibility for my part in creating her. I have cared for her, sacrificed for her, changed my entire life for her. I've done my part. Now it's time he does his, no matter how small of a part that will be.
I honestly hope this doesn't put any strain on his marriage, and I hope that it doesn't cause him to hate me, or especially HER. She didn't chose him to be her father. In fact, I know that if she could have a choice, she would have chosen someone who would want to be involved with her, or at least INTERESTED in her. No, she didn't chose this. I didn't chose this, and HE didn't chose this- but it's done. Nothing will ever change that fact. Now, the only thing to do is own up to it.
So, the process has begun once again. We'll see in the coming weeks how things will turn out. I only hope he understands why I have to do this.
In other news... Pandy is taking great care of me. She insists on helping me walk EVERYWHERE. She'll take my hand and say "I'll help you walk, mama", and she gets mad if I try to walk without her. She fed me a sandwich earlier- which was messy, but funny. We sat up late last night and watched Homeward Bound: The Incredible Journey last night. I'm going to go pick up The Last Unicorn from my house and bring it back here so we can watch it tonight. I'm thinking about getting her the Chronicles of Narnia series for Christmas, if I can afford it. She wants a Chia Pet for her birthday- which shouldn't be much trouble to get. She's still too afraid to sit on Santa's lap, so I guess no Santa Picture again this year :( She's going to help Jaymi and Mikey decorate the Christmas Tree here in a few days. And she's playing Super Mario Smash Brothers right now... I swear she's only 5 and already a gamer *shakes head*
I'm watching Mystery Science Theatre 3000: The Movie right now. I love this movie. I haven't seen it in forever. The pain is getting easier to deal with, but it's at it's worst in the morning. I'm still having a bit of trouble keeping food down. Aaaaannnddd... I can't stretch, which really sucks. I moved a bit too much last night and felt like my insides were ripping apart. I messed up one of my stitches, but thankfully it was on a part that is already healed together. Remind me never to have surgury again. Ugh!
Christmas is coming up fast. I can't believe it's already almost 2006. I'm hoping to go visit my friend Cherie in Arkansas here in a few weeks. I can't wait. Pandy and I both miss her terribly.
Hanyway... that's it. Nothing too new, nothing to exciting. I wish I could get in my mom's hot tub- but it's 16 degrees outside and my body would probably go into shock once I got out.
and yeah... enough rambling. Time for MST3K!
current mood: sore
current music: MST3K: The Movie
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| Tuesday, December 6th, 2005
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9:51 am - I'm half the girl I used to be....
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Wow, what a wonderful week. Thursday, I was doubled over in pain- unable to really do much but bitch and moan about what suffering I was in. I've been having sharp stomach pains for a while, but they never lasted as long as they did on Thursday. I tried many over the counter remedies to no avail. Finally, after being unable to even breathe without a mega pain shooting from my diaphram to my heart, I decided to go to the ER and see if they could fix me.
I've been in the hospital ever since.
It really wasn't a huge deal. Just had to get my gall bladder taken out and then get scoped and have a balloon push a gall stone out of my bile duct into my lower intestine- but I'm still in a bit of pain, still unable to really eat a decent meal, and still have problems sitting up straight or sitting in certain positions. 5 days of not smoking made me realize how nasty cigarette smoke tastes and smells. I've been out since yesterday evening, and I've only had a total of maybe 2 cigarettes. My mom told me that if I quit, that she'll quit. I'm taking her up on the offer. The smell and taste of smoke makes me want to puke, so it won't be too terribly difficult, I think.
Anyway- so I have about 4 weeks of recovery to go through. Which means no working. Which means Pandy won't have as good of a christmas as she did last year. I'll figure something out. Thankfully, she's not spoiled rotten, so I know that even if she only gets one or two gifts for Christmas, and one or two gifts for her birthday, she won't be incredibly disappointed.
So- I have one less organ to donate when I die- not that anyone would want my gall bladder anyway.
So...that's the news. Hope everyone is well.
current mood: sore
current music: E! True Hollywood Story- Chris Farley
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| Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
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2:37 pm - Fish shmish
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I swear to God, I always look forward to this guy's entries. Here's why:
(on his visit to the new aquarium in Georgia)-
"On the way to the piranha tank, we passed a tank full of south American fish. Peacock Bass, an aquatic species of pinata, and a fish called an Arrowana. Arrowana grow to ten feet in length and can jump up to 15 feet out of the water to snatch unicorns right out of the sky. Swear to god. They feed them unicorns.
And their name rhymes with a popular smokable drug.
Leading to disapproving scowl #4- Nathan asks the guy if they are swimming in bong water."
Go read the rest. Hell, read every entry. They're worth it on so many levels.
P.S. My birthday is on Friday. I'm old :(
current mood:  amused
current music: Johnny Cash- Cry, Cry, Cry
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| Thursday, November 17th, 2005
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4:00 pm - hope
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I just went and applied for a job I really, really want. Please cross your fingers that I get it. I need it desperately.
Joseph Smith has been found guilty of kidnapping, raping, and killing 11 year old Carlie Brucia. I've been watching this trial from day one- and I hope that they give him death for this crime. But, as her mother said, He will have 12 years to appeal the verdict. That's more years than Carlie was allowed to live. Brutal.
Anyway... cross your fingers. Say some prayers. Light some candles. I need a job before I jump off of a bridge.
ETA: I just read this article, and thought it was a creative way to punish her child for her bad grades and attitude in class. She said it's working so far, but she's getting a lot of criticism for it- even to the point where someone reported her for "psychologically damaging" her child and turning her into DHS. What do you think? Good way to stick it to a child who won't do schoolwork, or a psychologically damaging lesson?
current mood:  hopeful
current music: court tv
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| Monday, November 14th, 2005
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1:54 pm - If you are a parent....(a public service announcement that's actually worth it)
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If this doesn't piss you off enough to get off of your ass and do something- then what kind of parent are you being to your child?
Read through it.
Write letters to your representatives.
Don't just sit there thinking that "It can never happen to my child..." Do you not think these parents thought the same exact thing?
Listen, the truth is this: There are over 550,000 registered sex offenders in this country. 100,000 of them are unaccounted for. That means: We do not know where they are. They could be living right next door to your child's school, daycare, friend's house, your house.
After doing a quick internet search, I found that there are at least 15 registered sex offenders living within a 5 mile radius of my own house. I live next to a park for Christs sake!
The Child Safety Act of 2005 (or HR 3132) has been introduced into congress, and still needs some backing from YOUR representatives. This bill will require a national sex offender registry database in which citizens like you and I can search for predators in your area. It will also force tougher restrictions on convicted sex offenders. For example- did you know that as of right now, the way that they validate an address is by sending a post card that the offender then sends back to them? It doesn't even have to be a valid address. I came across at least 7 different addresses that listed only p.o. boxes for these predators. Some of them have been convicted up to 3 times, and are still out prowling the streets. The bill will also increase the penalties for sexually assaulting persons under the age of 18. That will mean more jail time, hopefully some rehabilitation attempts, and stricter rules on where they live (i.e., they cannot live within so many feet of a school or park). After further searching, I found that we have a man convicted not once, but TWICE, of sexual assault and lewd acts to a child under the age of 18. Where does he live? Right across the street from the elementary school that my niece and nephew attend, and that I'm attempting to get my daughter into. I mean, come on. This is rediculous.
Children walk home from school alone every day. Even if they are with one or two friends, what makes you think that a 175 pound man couldn't get at least one of those children into a car by force? You know it only take about 3 seconds to do so. Children walk home from friend's houses, sometimes alone. How easy would it be for a predator to pull up beside them, grab them, and take off? They could be well out of the state before the police can even file a missing persons' report. And what about the children abducted from their beds at night? What about the children abducted while playing innocently in their front yard?
I am by no means telling you to keep your eyeballs on your child 24/7. Any parent knows that it is impossible to do so. But prevention is key, people. Preventing these monsters from being able to dwell next door to you, across the street from you, next to the schools or next to the parks where you take your children to play can have a major impact in bringing the incidents down. Even if it doesn't do it 100 %, or even 50%- even if it only works to bring it down by 10%, that's 10% more children hugging their parents goodnight. That's 10% more children playing with their friends tomorrow. That's 10% more little girls and little boys like YOUR child brightening their parent's lives. That's 10% less heartbreak.
Imagine if you will not knowing where your child is. Now, imagine you're the mother of Carlie Brucia. The man accused of kidnapping, raping, and killing her daughter is now on trial (a trial which you can watch on court tv). Details coming to light through the course of the trial reveal the horrendous nature of this crime. The defense is asking why the prosecution cannot prove Carlie was raped. The answer? Because animals ate her. Her body was laid to rot in a field where it decayed for days, where bugs and animals feasted on her- while her mother sat in worry, wondering when she would be able to hold her little girl in her arms again. Harsh, isn't it? But it's reality, folks. Now, Carlie's mother is watching the trial daily on tv- as the harshness of the case is too much for her to be in court in person. Which is understandable. If I were her, I wouldn't hesitate to leap at this man and rip him apart with my own two hands. Imagine having to hear in detail what happened during the last horrid moments of your child's life. Imagine having to hear about what happened to your child AFTER they died. Imagine the days before your child is found- wondering if they're warm, if they're safe, if they're hurt, if they're crying for you, if they're scared- just to find out that they were in a field- naked, cold, dead, being feasted on by animals and maggots. If you are a parent, you know that no matter how old your child is, you will always, always see them as that infant that you cuddled and cooed to sleep every night. They will always be your baby. Imagine learning of your baby's fate at the hands of a monster such as Joseph Smith.
And just think- she though that it would never happen to her baby, either.
Seriously. Write your representatives. As of right now, there are only 89 cosponsors on this bill. Get your reps more involved. LET THEM KNOW you want them to put the legal system to good use.
A man convicted of aggravated sexual assault on a 5 year old girl recently got 5 years probation. PROBATION!!! That doesn't mean jail time. That means seeing a probation officer once a month and submitting to a drug test and maybe doing community service and having to go to some sort of program for a month or two. I've been on probation, and although it's not a breeze, it's not a proper punishment for someone who literally ruins another human beings life forever.
And last but not least, do your own research. AMW.com provides great tips for keeping your child(ren) safe, as well as updates about current cases, updates about HR 3132, as well as a link to search for predators in your own state. There is also NCMEC.org which has constant updates about amber alerts, tips, and worst case scenario help.
I have been working on this stuff for months, doing research, writing letters, spreading the word- getting INVOLVED. But I can't do it alone.
When you read about these children that have been tortured, killed, kidnapped, raped... imagine how their parents felt. Imagine how YOU would feel if it were YOUR child.
It hurts, doesn't it? Well, that's nothing compared to what they have felt and are feeling now.
get involved. If you don't... then who will?
current mood:  determined
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| Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
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5:32 pm - cut off their balls.....
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You know what I hate? I can't remember what life was like before I became so cynical. I hate how jaded I've become.
I'm loving the Family Guy podast.
current mood: crappy
current music: PTV- Fox Family Guy Podcast
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| Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
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7:13 pm - Call God on high... repent.... the end is near.... and other knock knock jokes.
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It's been a few days, huh? Truth is, I never really have anything important to say. My sister said my journal is boring. I have to agree with her. Sorry, the inner turmoil is just too much to put out there right now. Not really a big deal, it's not like I can't handle it- I just don't feel like sharing it. You understand, I'm sure.
Well, I ran across this organization, and let me just say that I'm scared. Not because I actually think that they'll pull it off, but the thought that there are actually people out there this extreme, this ignorant, this STUPID as to use religion in this fashion.
Truth is, folks, that all Jesus wanted to teach was love. Love for your fellow human beings, love for your environment, and love for love's sake. Just L-O-V-E, LOVE. I hate how people have taken His message and twisted it into something completely ugly just for their own agendas.
Here, let me highlight for you the point of the Christian Exodus:
from the website-
ChristianExodus.org is coordinating the move of thousands of Christians to South Carolina for the express purpose of re-establishing Godly, constitutional government. It is evident that the U.S. Constitution has been abandoned under our current federal system, and the efforts of Christian activism to restore our Godly republic have proven futile over the past three decades. The time has come for Christians to withdraw our consent from the current federal government and re-introduce the Christian principles once so predominant in America to a sovereign State like South Carolina.
Now, of course, they fail to realize that our forefathers were smart enough to understand that America would not have just one religion. That's why they gave us freedom of religion. Unfortunately, it wasn't freedom FROM religion, but we'll take what we can get, right? Now, I have no problems with Christians. I have no problems with Pagans, with Muslims, with Jews, with Buddhists, etc. Sure, I might crack a joke or two about each religion, but it's all in good fun and under very endearing terms. I respect religions that respect individuals and free thought. I respect those that respect back. These folks have zero respect. That, I cannot stand.
Anywho.... I just thought it was interesting and figured that I have a nice, wide array of religious and non-religious types on my flist. I knew that it would be of interest to some of you folk.
Interesting enough for you, shannon?
There, I've done my part- now do yours.
current mood: blah
current music: Gorillaz- DARE
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| Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
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12:33 pm - So let the words of our mouths and the meditation of our hearts be acceptable in thy sights....
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I just got home from the emergency room. Yesterday morning I fell down the stairs and hit my neck and back pretty bad. They gave me some muscle relaxers and some loritab. So, I'll probably be checked out for a few days.
Went to do paternity testing on Pandy today. Not really a big deal, I suppose. Just something that needs to be done.
There's other stuff, but I'm a bit out of it right now. I think I'll go feed Pandy and myself and lie down on the couch for a while.
ETA: if for some reason you see fit to come here kicking and screaming because I'm using an icon you made or thought up, why don't YOU personally ask me to credit, and I will. Getting a band of people to come here and comment about what a "theif" I am, on the other hand, will have the opposite effect. And as for the children who are trying to make me cry over the interweb... well, I'm not going to. Why? BECAUSE IT'S THE FUCKING INTERNET!. Now, kindly go away and stay gone.
current mood: sore
current music: Sublime- Rivers of Babylon
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| Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
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11:49 am - Black Debbie?!
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YAY for lack of excitement.
Had to take Pandy back to the ER on sunday. She's got an infection in her lymph nodes and they're swollen as hell. She's on antibiotics and is feeling slightly better. It's now believed that she had Scarlet Fever and not German Measles. But she's ok, considering.
I'm listening to DangerDoom right now. AWESOME fucking album. I'm so glad I remembered to get it.
Might be going to Dallas in 2 weeks for a concert. *might* being the key word there. Depends on Angie and stuff. (like money). We'll see.
hanyway....see? Not exciting at all, is it? Oh, you know you wish you were me....
current mood: calm
current music: Danger Doom - No Names (Black Debbie)
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| Thursday, October 13th, 2005
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1:59 pm - Stick the needle where?!
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Welp, I'm officially a guinea pig. I went today to fill out paperwork and to sign a waver and have labs and crap done for the bipolar medication study.
Raspiradol. Injections. Dude.
I also got $50 just for showing up- so that made it worth it in and of itself.
The guy who is running it is really cute. But he reminds me too much of Matt- my ex boyfriend. Not that it really matters anyhow, just an observation.
I got to get hooked up to an ecg machine, got blood drawn, and gave a urine sample. What sucked was a) having to fast for 24 hours before hand, and b) trying to find my way around the city.
I've lived here off and on since I was 14 or 15, and I still don't know my way around downtown OKC too well. I know where the jail is. And I know where the Mcdonalds is that I could see from my jail cell (I hated that McDonalds while I was in there. Always right outside my window...taunting me with their big macs and double quarter pounders with cheese's and their chocolate shakes while I was stuck eating mush and stale toast. Bah... bastards). So yeah, I had to have about 4 different people explain to me how to get back to the highway from the research center.
Buuuuuut anyway... nothing too terribly exciting.
Pandy has ruebella (sp?) (German Measles). She's acting fine, but she's got blisters all over her. I took her to the emergency room the night before last. That was a huge waste of time. They told me to give her tylenol- which I had already been doing. But yeah... she's fine, she just has a slight fever and the blisters.
Other than that...nothing at all has been going on, really. I lead a nice, boring life.
Maybe Angie might want to go watch karaoke with me tonight.
blah... boring sucks sometimes.
( Because I'm bored- and easily amused... )
current mood: blah
current music: Foo Fighters- Everlong (acoustic)
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| Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
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8:31 am - Go whiteboy go whiteboy go
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Hahaha... there's just something about dancing around and singing "Brass Monkey" at the top of your lungs with your sister at 8:30 in the morning that makes you realize that the day will be a-o-k.
EDIT: if you have the song, play it... then watch my icon. Fry TOTALLY does the Brass Monkey!
current mood:  bouncy
current music: Beastie Boys- Brass Monkey
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| Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
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3:58 pm - Big whoop. Wanna fight about it?
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Not too long ago, I felt ornery and made ( this picture )
my sisters wallpaper on her desktop. hahaha.
It's been a long day. I'm ready for 9:oo to roll around. *dreamy sigh*
current mood:  enthralled
current music: Ian Moore- Champagne & Reefer
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| Monday, October 3rd, 2005
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7:27 am - Hit the snooze until October 3rd....
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This weekend was weird.
Went over to Angie's for a gathering. It wasn't extremely exciting, but it was fun all the same.
Saturday night, our friend Jenny went to the Sooners game. She called us after she got home and asked if we were going to ask her if she was ok- since everyone else and their mother had called her to ask about her well-being. We didn't know what she was talking about....
A guy blew himself up on campus outside of the game. Yeah. Fucked up, ain't it? (yeah. Here: http://msnbc.msn.com/id/9557879/ )
Well, we went to bed late, woke up early. Hung out around the house for a while. Went over to Jenny's and visited for a few hours. I came home, took a shower, left, came home, left, came home, left.... it's pretty much been that way all weekend.
Now I'm going to go get in the shower so I can go get my license. Joy.
current mood:  cold
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| Saturday, October 1st, 2005
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10:29 am - Do you realize.....
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I FINALLY have in my possession Stewie Griffin: The Untold Story. It's about damn time! I hate being broke. It sucks.
I'm probably staying at Angies' tonight. We're going to have our own little party. Nothing much, really. Just a couple of beers, good conversation, and some good old fashioned "raising anonymous hell". Should be fun.
Moms house for dinner. Anyone else wanna come? She has a pool table!
current mood: ecstatic
current music: Flaming Lips- Knives Out
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| Friday, September 30th, 2005
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5:46 pm - theoretically speaking.....
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I never know what to say anymore.
So many things I want to write, but too many people I know who read. There are things I want to keep to myself, but jot down to remember. For sentimental reasons, for technical reasons, or for no reason at all.
I am a pack rat.
And I pack away my memories... but eventually lose them in the move.
this really, really sucks.
current mood: loved
current music: White Stripes- Seven Nation Army
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| Wednesday, September 28th, 2005
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12:48 pm - Strange things are afoot at the circle K....
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Weird things are happening.
I lost my wallet. But that's not the weird shit.
The weird shit... I can't talk about. It's a secret. It's so secret, I giggle when I think about it.
ETA: I found my wallet.
current mood: giddy
current music: Southern Culture On The Skids- Walk Like A Camel
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| Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
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4:55 pm
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The blacks of my eyes are turning into opals
Today I walk
Theres nothing here left for me
But empty promises
And the thought of all the things Im never getting back
You came you saw you conquered
Everyone
Im left here bleeding
What went wrong
Yeah Im down but not out
And far from done…hey all
Beware! Criminal
Did you think I wouldn’t notice
Did you really think I wouldn’t care
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8:02 am
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How in the fuck can a cat get locked in a stupid car? BY ITSELF?!
I mean, seriously.... WTF?!
current mood: breaking into car- not happy
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| Sunday, September 25th, 2005
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2:44 pm - I've been thinking about my doorbell- when you gonna ring it? When you gonna ring it?
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Went to a friend's gathering last night.
Had a blast.
Totally blew people away with my mad 90's Trivial Pursuit skills. Then some guy challenged me to a "Who's a bigger family guy fan" contest. I totally, totally kicked his ass there.
Met a lot of people. Laughed at a lot of people. Played monopoly. Picked on Amy.
passed out around 5 a.m., woke up at 7 a.m. Took a shower, got dressed, then headed back over to the house and helped clean up.
And now... I'm off to my moms to eat some smoked ham, then I'm gonna watch the new Family Guy.
Good times, good times.
current mood: exhausted
current music: White Stripes- My Doorbell
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| Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
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3:59 pm
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I just had to say this real quick...
My Name Is Earl is an awesome, awesome show. Very funny, very unique, and VERY Jason Lee. Wonderfull all around. Check it out next week if you get a chance. Tuesday nights on... I don't remember what channel, but I'm sure you can google it if you're interested in finding out :)
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| Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
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11:53 am - Because the stars say so.....
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Here's what the stars say about me and my birthday. Everything I type here is absolutely true.
( Nov. 25th & me )
If you want yours done, and if I have enough time on the computer (it took me friggin' forever to type this up), leave a comment, and I'll get to it when I can.
EDIT: I need to stop requests until I get the next four done. I'll strikeout this edit when I'm done and can take requests to do more.
current mood: chipper
current music: White Stripes- My Doorbell
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7:04 am - Wake me up when september ends.....
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I was just dropping Pandy off at school, and the first family to enroll from New Orleans was there for their first day. The mom was there, so I struck up a conversation with her while waiting to check Pandy in. She said that she lost everything. She wasn't able to get out until about a week and a half ago. But she's very thankful for all of those who donated food, clothing, an apartment for the next 6 months, and their prayers. She's a really nice lady. She's going job hunting today- I wished her luck. She has 2 daughters, both of whom are very shy- which I can understand. Being new and in a new enviornment can be a little intimidating. One of the girls is 4 years old- so naturally, Pandy went right to her and asked her name, how old she was, and of course, introduced herself...."Well, my name is Pandorah. My mama calls me Pandy." She then grabbed her hand, and took her to the beanbags in front of the t.v. where Toy Story was playing. They were giggling by the time I left, which made me happy that Pandy is so open and straightforward to introduce herself. She really has no problems making friends at all. They'll be in the same pre-k class, so Adreah (her name) will have at least one friend when she gets there, which will hopefully make it a little less scary.
I have to work today. Chances are, I'll only make about 10 dollars. That's enough to give me maybe a half a tank. *sigh* And gas prices are going back up again, too. Why don't I remember gas prices going so high when other hurricanes came through the gulf? yeah, I know- there are other factors involved... but it's just driving me insane. I wouldn't be so angry if the money went to people who need it, instead of people who just want more of it even though they're some of the richest people there are. Greed is the root of all evil.
For the last month or so, Pandy's been bugging me to give her a little sister. It's gotten worse over the last couple of days. When we were at my mom's house the other day, she said that she had a little sister who was one year old and was living in Virginia. Where the hell she got Virginia, I'll never know. I assured my family that I did not give birth without telling them. Yesterday, she kept bugging me about it, though. I finally told her that I wasn't having anymore kids anytime soon. That she was more than enough for me. I told her that maybe when I'm 35 or 40 I'll have another one- but that highly depends on the circumstances. So, my sister told her that she can pretend that Piper is her little sister for now. So, of course... Pandy is now saying that ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) blushingangel76 is her mom, and I am now her aunt. Sheesh!
Annndd... I wish it was October 1st already. I hate September.
current mood:  awake
current music: Pedro The Lion- Fade Into You (Mazzy Star cover)
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| Monday, September 19th, 2005
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11:49 am - Yarrrrrrr!
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| Saturday, September 17th, 2005
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11:35 am - One last post for the day.... I hope. But it's worth it...
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This is one of the best blogs I've ever seen. It almost reminds me of atomicwedgie. Check it out. I promise you won't be disappointed. Look through the archives as well. I highly recomend This entry. I've been reading this guy for a while... and I'm always left laughing so hard I almost pee myself. (Almost, people. ALMOST!)
So yeah.
Do it.
current mood: amused
current music: Southern Culture On The Skids- Walk Like A Camel
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8:47 am
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"Women are tenacious. You knock us down, we'll get back up. I don't think that men ever realized throughout history the strength that women have. And it's quite a strength. We don't use swords or go on crusades. We just quietly keep moving forward."
Ok.... Question for you guys....
There are three houses built exactly the same. One is filled with cotton, the other with wood, and the third with iron. One day an arsonist sets them all on fire. Sirens were loudly coming to the scene. People were screaming. Which house did the ambulance try to put the fire out at first?
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7:55 am - Oh, baby- I was bound for Mexico... Oh baby- I was bound to let you go.....
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Let's see... what have I been up to?.....
I may be participating in a pharmaceutical (sp?) study for medications to help those with bipolar disorder. I'll get free meds, free labs, and $50 each visit (which would be weekly). Pretty awesome.
I worked a couple of times this week. Thank God because my car needed gas desperately. I drive around a lot, but never really end up anywhere.
I hung out with Angie a few days ago. Hopefully I can get a hold of her sometime today so I can get out of the house for a while.
Went to my first parent/teacher confrence on Thursday. My little girl is growing up way too fast.
Still single. It sucks... but I'm getting by, I suppose.
Will probably get drunk dialed by a few different people tonight. Gotta love my friends.
Oh yeah... and I no longer have blonde streaks. I'm now back to my signiature color.
I didn't pass out until 3 a.m. Woke up at 6. ON A SATURDAY!!!!! wtf?
Oh... and my next door neighbor- who's in his late 40's I think- has a crush on me. =/
um. ew.
that is all.....
current mood:  empty
current music: Radiohead - How To Disappear Completely
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| Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
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9:52 am - hope = insanity
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Taken from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) metaquotes, as said by parakleta :
"I remember hearing once that the definition of insanity was doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different outcome. I only just realised tonight that that could equally as well describe hope."
Now, how true is that?
EDIT:
Let me lay out this scenario for you: You go to the pound to get a dog. The dog has been abused since the day it was born. Neglected, smacked around, kicked, taunted... for years and years (and this is a fairly old dog, mind you). So when you chose this dog, you realize that when you raise your voice above a whisper, it's ears go down, it tucks it's tail between it's legs, and it crouches low to the ground- basically waiting for you to hit it. You would never, EVER hurt an animal, though- so you don't understand why this dog is behaving this way. When you eat, the dog wanders off and hides- knowing that if it even sniffs the air for the delicious aroma, it would be beaten almost to unconsciousness. You wonder why it does this. You have had the dog for a month or so... yet it still displays this behavior. You wonder why... why? If you have shown this dog nothing but love for the last month, shouldn't it know it can trust you by now?
The truth is, it can't. If a dog has been abused for years, it could take a long, long time for it to be able to trust that you won't hurt it- as hurt is the only thing it has known it's entire life. If you even try to play with it, it will still cower at the sight of you raising your hand- even if it's just to pet it between the ears.
This is abused dog syndrome. And it works very much the same with humans as well.
Why is it so hard for people to understand this? Why do they say "Oh, you were abused before. But I treat you wonderfully- so why can't you trust me? Why can't you believe that I won't hurt you? Being abused in the past is no excuse to take it out on me- who would never do such a thing to you." What they fail to understand is that it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter because that is all you know- that's the hell you've lived in for so long. You have been broken down- TRAINED to be this way... subservient. Less than human. Less than living. Not worth respect, affection, or loyalty. A person who has been abused, lied to, cheated on for years- not just by one person, but by a few... will react much in the same way as the abused dog.
Trust is not an immediate option. It builds slowly. Over time. The brainwashing effects that the abuser left behind are too deep to release immediately.
So before you start condemning me for reacting the way I do about certain things- keep in mind the life of an abused dog. Although it takes a while, it may warm up eventually- but it will always have the internal scars from life before it found you- even if you are the greatest thing that happened to it. Have patience.... we're all still learning in this life. Even you.
current mood: contemplative
current music: Tool- Stinkfist
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7:57 am - So what if you're God- make it better!
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Have you checked this thing out yet? Well, you really should. It kills boredom for a few moments, anyway.
( Look- God likes CHEESE!! )
I woke up late today. I don't know why... I went to bed early. Like, at 3:30.
I made a few postcards for postsecret. I think they look pretty good. Now, I just have to send them =/
Annnd.... umm... I think I'm going job hunting today. I know Sugars is hiring for a cocktail waitress. So I'm going to go by there and apply.
so..... yeah...
current mood: accomplished
current music: Southern Culture On The Skids- Walk Like A Camel
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